My Father passed away this morning. He was diagnosed with lung cancer over a year ago and it finally took his life. We were able to visit him in the nursing home when we were home this summer - here is a photo of Elijah with his Grampie Red (so named for obvious reasons)…
My Father was not a Believer, and for most of my childhood the fact that we were, angered him. My Mother, sisters and I have always prayed for his salvation, and we believe that the past year has been an answer to our prayers. He was blessed to have had that time to repent and turn to God. I recently wrote him a letter to encourage him to use this time to do just that. Lately, in my prayers I added a request - that we would know that his soul was saved…but we don’t.
It was a blessing to see him in the nursing home this summer, even though his body looked so frail and sick. He really wasn’t angry - which is mostly how I remember him. He was very quiet, and his eyes were so tired and sorrowfull. I didn’t like that, but my Mother had some insightfull words…”But I think it’s good that he can feel, Janet. Don’t you?” You see, my Father was an alcoholic, and for most of his life his feelings were drowned in alcohol. Yes, I do believe that it was good for him to feel.
Now on to the logistics of getting home to the funeral and leaving my children in the care of others…I really feel that I must go, despite the huge expense. Remember us in your prayers as we figure all these things out.